Instant Thoughts From My Tumblr

"Romance isn’t about making and saying sweet flirty words, and giving poems. But it’s about speaking with actions, and the one who does it seriously make me fall in love even deeper."

"Am too scared to share my dreams. Too afraid to take the risk. Can’t be brave enough to be responsible for what I’d say. Don’t want to be disappointed, don’t want to make other people lose hope on me. This. The pain still remains, the pain still lingers. But I know there’s always a person who supports me after all. After what I’ve been through. No. It’s not about love."

"Two people who love each other can’t be easily together. You wonder? Me too. Then I’m asking, why the universe cannot make it easy?"

"Perempuan ya emang. Lebih milih kehujanan berdua daripada kering sendirian."

"You’re not blacklisted. It’s my heart that closes its door, for you."

"Jatuh cinta diem - diem itu jatuh cinta paling suci, karena nggak kesentuh siapa - siapa. Termasuk sama objek yang kita cintai."

"He has a girlfriend. And that girlfriend is not me."

"It’s okay for me to have a long-life partner with chubby and short appearance as long as he’s as witty, smart and funny, as Ryan Adriandhy."

"Kalau lagi libur, otak kamu ikutan libur juga ya?"

"Am I this desperate for missing a feeling like having a crush on someone and getting butterflies whenever I see him?"

"Orang bilang, yang waras ngalah. Lalu semuanya lebih milih jadi gila."

"What if I fall in love with you? Are you ready to catch me? Do your feet stay on the ground?"

"Untungnya Tuhan masih baik ya, ngingetin gue di kehidupan orang lain."

"I warn you
Don’t fall in love with me
It’s a trap
It’s a mess"

-2 years ago / from my Tumblr.

God Gave A Surprise

I never thought that God made us reunited again in an unexpected place like yesterday. Well, I think reunited wasn’t a proper word to describe that because it was just me who saw you and I believe that you didn’t even recognize I was there.

I saw you standing there while drinking a bottle of water and talking with a girl. At the very first, I thought that girl was your girlfriend. But when I blinked my eyes once again, she wasn’t. Or maybe it was my eyes who did mistakes? Yes, it might be.

Do you want to know why I can assume that boy who I was looking at before is you? It was because his little gestures when he tried to fix his eyeglasses’ position. And yeah not to forget his appearance. He has totally a hundred percent same appearance as you because the boy is you.

I laughed at myself for a little while when I spotted you at the crowded room yesterday. It was just like a dream to me to meet you again. Okay no, I mean oh my god I strongly believe that I don’t believe for seeing you again after almost three years. Yes, almost three years. So it was like a surprise, a little surprise to me.

Anyway,

You’re still the same, still has chubby cheeks, still tall (or more taller?), still has a sweet giggle and smile, still ‘bear’ (you’re a bear and it means you’re cute), and you still love to fix your eyeglasses with your middle finger. Hahaha.

P.s: I didn’t tell you that we were in the same room yesterday (by blackberry messenger) because I told to myself that “gue bakalan nyapa lo ntar kalo kita ketemu” And then we didn’t meet after I exited the room. So ciao, until we meet again!

-2 years ago / from my Tumblr.

Hope You Understand

Dear blogger fellas,

today, June 27th, 2016, I decided to remove my Tumblr and Steller as my second and third media to write. The reason is that it's hard to maintain those media. Well, actually I can't keep them up, so yeah basically I just want this blog as my main media to write. (Hope I will not regret this decision, hahaha) But, I will still use my other Tumblr account to be my online portfolio. 

So, to keep and save my posts on Tumblr and Steller, I will post some of them here on my blog just because I want to reminisce those memories and writings. And that is why the title of this post is hope you understand because I really am hoping you guys will understand if your dashboard will be so full with my throwback post.

I will let you know if the post was from Tumblr or not by putting "The time it has been published / from my Tumblr" on the post. 

Thank you and have a nice day, people!


Love,
NM.

A Thank You Post

This post is dedicated to every one who takes a role in my life; families, friends, and the one who still gives me a chance to live; The God Almighty Allah SWT.

I know this post is way too late, karena sebenarnya gue udah punya rencana untuk nulis ini dari bulan Maret, tepat saat umur gue bertambah menjadi 20 tahun.

For me, age 20 is like a turning point; a point when something begins to change and which a very significant change occurs; a decisive moment.

And that is why I believe everything in this life could change so fast after this. Baik itu dari diri gue sendiri yang berubah, orang - orang sekitar gue, atau pun lingkungan gue sendiri. And hopefully, gue, mereka, dan sekeliling gue berubah menjadi lebih baik.

Gue juga percaya bahwa rintangan dan tantangan akan semakin banyak kedepannya, but well, I still believe that I can pass all those things though. 

Nikita in her 20s. Ps: actually this photo wasn't taken on my birthday :p

I could say that actually I'm evolving to be finer this year; 2016. I joined many activities, did many things for the very first time, knew a lot of new people, went to places I've never visited before, and last, this girl finally has reached the finish line of carrying a torch after five years. So, maybe it's the right time to turn the page, yes? Hahaha!

The better and finer evolves and changes in me nggak serta merta terjadi begitu aja, it was produced by the helps of people around me. And that is why I write this post to people I love to say thank you.

Dear my families,
baik itu untuk Mamah, Adek, Papah (hey, Pah! Your daughter miss you so much here) dan keluarga lainnya, thank you for always support me, love me, accept me the way I am, and trust me. I love you, a lot.

Dear my friends,
thank you for staying, even sometimes, this girl is causing irritation and annoys you. But you have to know and understand, I love you this much and this big.

And dear God,
thank you for giving me a chance to live, thank you for this beautiful life. and thank you for sending me people to love. Thank you for it all.

Here goes the people who took a part and made my day on March 30th, 2016--even some occasion didn't happen on that day, but still I appreciate. A lot.

A sweet cake from sweet people, Efril and Arni. Makasih udah gedar gedor pintu kosan di pagi hari!

"Mbak, kalian kembar ya?" selalu ditanya begini pas lagi sama this girl, Erika. Thanks a lot Bokumi super cutenya!  

My favorite changing people, Tian! Makasih loh Yan udah upload foto gue di Instagram lo. Padahal kan susah ya masuk ke sana kalau bukan artis?

Rania dan Aida, makasih ya udah pura - pura pinjem kosan buat sholat padahal yang punya belum sampe kosan.

Butuh usaha ekstra untuk foto begini karena self-timer.

Surprise ternorak! Sebel! Karena pakai telor. Untung kalian semua juga kena. Thanks ya cabe - cabeku dan teman kalau butuhku!

Celebrating our birthday! Thank you Khol and Ich for made this for us. Tac, Fay, Och, and Niki were happy. So much love for you! Even after this there was a hassle HAHAHA LOVE U 

The definition of "our birthday"

Bukan Maba Lagi!

Majlis Ta'lim kesukaan! Minus Sulthan! Thanks a lot yang-udah-bukan-majlis-ta'lim-lagi :p

My world's greatest friend, Gigih! Thank you for the gifts and the letter. Terharu mau nangis aja bacanya. 

The super awesome wakadep kreatif yang ide banget bikin begini, thank you Kukuh! Dan The Rookies yang udah ngucapin satu - satu pakai gambar beda warna latarnya!

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you, I could not ask for more.

And for people who aren't on the pictures and your names aren't mentioned, that doesn't mean I don't love you or forget you. No. I thank you a lot and I am grateful to have all of you.

"Starting today, I need to forget what's gone. Appreciate what still remains and look forward to what's coming next."


Love,
NM.